Queermaste

You all wear your masks
But let it slip a little for me
When you see me living so
Unapologetically 
I see you more than you know
All the signals and slight movements
The flick of a wrist and nervous glance
Tongue furtively crossing dry lips
When you see 
And consider me
As the pretty boy
That I always wanted to be
That upon birth even the doctor told the new mother was a son
At first 
One that dons mascara and liner
If the occasion is right

Sometimes you offer a kiss
Other times a lustful glance
A night of fantasy fulfilled 
But only a night!
A light touch of the hand
A flirty exchange 
Testing the waters of that deeply buried desire
That burns and terrifies in equal measure 

Queermaste my boys
The queer in me recognizes the queer in you
Though yours remains
Hidden

Fuck the patriarchy
Fuck the fathers who told you not to dance 
Fuck the other boys who wanted 
So desperately to fuck you 
But couldn’t 
So teased you cruelly instead
Fuck everyone who made your expressions of the divine feminine feel like a weakness 
Instead of a courageous strength

I understand why
I accept my role
As a catalyst 
As a confidante 
As one who can truly see you
For you
It’s happened far too many times
To be mere coincidence
I understand the cold fear
Of being discovered through your attraction
Of being seen through your connection
To this masculine dyke
To this pretty boy with the great hair
So I keep my mouth shut
You keep your mask on 
But I love you anyway
God how I love you 
And I let you love me too
In your own way
From afar
Inconsistent 
Sporadic 
It never hurts any less
But I understand 
They can’t know
My masculine too obvious
For you to pass it off
As just a “crush on a girl”
My proud and loud 
Too open, too raw
It would risk exposing your world
Your life
I get it
You should know
I don’t blame you my dear
For your pragmatic quest to survive
It’s still a man’s world
But I refuse to give up on you 
I refuse to ignore the difficulty of the pressure
To be the man everyone wants you to be 
Yourself included
I’m going to keep loving you anyway

So join with me now  
Beautiful bi boys
Even if only in the recitation of these lines
Scream out from your closets
With such resounding queer joy
That we take down the walls 
and the bastards too!

Fuck the patriarchy!
Fuck the patriarchy!
Fuck the patriarchy!