Flicker

This little flicker
It just refuses to 
Be extinguished
It jumps and dances
Soars and falls
And some days
I can go hours without
Your name crossing my mind
Emerging from my lips
Cutting through my chest
I suppose that means it’s “better”

Then I see you
See through you
Deep into you
And I’m 
Helplessly intoxicated again
Admiring your gift for
The purest expression
Of cold, hard pain
Playing it on repeat
As I cross your lit up bridge
With that unpronounceable name
Thinking I might get it right someday

But oh 
Extinguish damn it!
You’d think the wetness 
Dripping from these cheeks 
Would have drowned it by now
I’ll bet you don’t know the extent
Of those salty seas boy
Let me tell you 
They are vast
They are vast

But not enough 
For this 
Little flicker
That continues to burn
And dance
And frolic
And defiantly sticks its tongue out
At my repeated attempts 
To deprive it of oxygen
To deprive it of your beauty 
That somehow makes its way
Through every possible crack in my world
This little flicker
It laughs with abandon
And continues to burn away